koini ochite

I've fallen too deeply in and I know it. It's a ridiculous mixture of security and apprehension. I want to do so many things and I can't wait. But what if! Again..

I wished the scars from three years ago had disappeared. I wished the fears would go away.

I was so moved when the sms came in, and felt so strongly to just follow the urge and reply. Simply. But what if.. again..

I hate you. I hate myself. I hate the coward in me.

I just want to be brave again.